jus now went to meet jen, waited for the stupid bus 55 for 25mins and i'm sure to be late..then my phone cannot use so i took a bus to serangoon to find public phone to tell her i'm gonna be late, find phone also need to find till abt 10mins =.=..all the phone removed sia..after that jiu went to meet her, taka and taka's fren..when i first saw her i was so nervous cos so long nv meet le then dunno will awkward or not..i haven got this nervous for super long sia, like when i first time saw her that kinda pattern lorx..starting dun really have things to talk to, dun really dare to look her into her eyes..can see that she trying find things to talk to me and scared i being left alone, then i reply and chat lorx..

went to find cap wif them..after that wanted to find a place to sit down but all the mac,kfc and mos burger are full hse..went to Bishan blk 511, jen eat then they drink water..after that wanna go AMK play pool but some of them underage so ask taka accompany them home..left me and jen go AMK together, go up till the pool there soooo full sia(as expected cos it's friday)..then waited awhile but in the end jen says dun wait le cos quite late liao, jus go downstair chat chat lorx..went to 7-eleven to buy drink for her and i used that 1 dollar note in my wallet..think jen and a few ppl noe that no matter how broke or poor i am, i nv ever use that 1 dollar de..counted as a lucky charm to me ba, but after so many things happen i dun think that it is lucky anymore LOL..so used it away and decided to start everything afresh =)..after that chat alot wif jen lorx, sit down and talk abt our life..very relax, dunnit purposely go find topic talk..like the first time she come SG meet me like that, very jian dan..

really feel very relax after seeing her..past few months nv really feel that relax, even though there were time where i feel relax and happy but still haven put down the stone in my heart..jus now meet dao her, i feel like i put down the heavy stone in my heart le..finally i faced my fear of meeting her, now i noe wont feel awkward seeing her le..noe that she previously really in a bad mood from the conversation wif her jus now..but now i think that she will very soon start afresh and stand up again le, from the expression of her eyes jus now..glad to noe that she is doing fine =)..that's all i needa noe ^o^..she is still the jen i noe and i am still myself =)..REALLY FEEL HAPPY AND RELAX NOW~ nth i wanna think of le, i'm satisfied wif the current situation le..jus now saw her then i rmb what i learn when i wif her and after we break..to keep myself calm and think of things on both side..most importantly be myself ^o^