dunno what to say..feeling quite happy in the evening, went to watch movie and gai gai wif bella..took some pics..but dad jus received a call, my grandma jus passed away..mind in a total blank now..update another time..

hehex..today slack at heng hse..play audi and msn..dunno why i enjoy slacking recently..feeling quite happy today..recently finally able to enjoy myself..have a feeling that i found back the old me~ my smiles are coming back, they are so real and precious..dun wanna lose myself again =)..i got a nice song in my friendster imeem, took it from bella..update more for u all, take care all..

hehex..now currently at east coast de lanshop..today feel kinda happy but still worrying my grandma at the same time..waiting for my sch time table to be out, so slow haven out yet sia..hmmx, really hope and pray that she will be fine..still got alot of frens i haven link back..will update soon..every1 take care and jia you for studies.. =)

hmmx..yst nite after i went home, drank the most delicious fish soup ever..the soup is so clear and sweet, jus keep drinking non-stop..cant really slp yst nite, slept at arnd 5am..keep thinking of things though i dun wan to..keep having interupted slp..

woke up arnd 12+ this afternoon, after eating lunch went to visit my grandma..she's in MICU ward, so only few ppl can go in at a time..went in wif my dad and eldest sis..the moment i saw my grandma, i called her and i broke down in tears..i thought i wouldn't cry and would be strong, but when i saw her suffering my tears jus can't stop..when we talk to her, she seems like she can hear us..her body keep moving like she wanna talk but she seems to have difficulty in breathing..seeing so many needles and tubes on her body really made my heart wrench..REALLY PAIN..even now that i am typing, my tears are jus rushing out..every1 are so worried abt her, hope that she can recover and wake up soon..

Miss u grandma, will always pray that u are ok..

It has been so long since I last updated my blog, maybe 6-7months? Really a lot happened during this time. Met a girl that changed my life and thinking, a girl that I love her whole heartedly, my first love. We have been together for 5months plus, it's really enjoyable and happy with her. But in the end our love ended at March 21th, which is good friday. Really don't know where to start talking about the past 6-7months but I will slowly update on what happen and how I enjoyed my times with her. Somehow I really miss her and can't get over her. But I know that it's over and I have to move on with my life. I just wish that she is happy and safe no matter where she is, what she is doing or who she is with. No matter what I will still be there for her. For now I just wish to enjoy and stay happy with my friends. Don't want to think so much about it, just do what I must do. Want to treat all my close friends well too, want to excel in my studies and have a good job in the future. Some how my heart still aches and wrench everyday, still thinking of her everyday even though I try to keep myself busy. 10 April is our 6months together but I can't celebrate with her as we already broke up. Really wish that I can celebrate her birthday for her, as it is getting closer.

Recently have been very stressed and troubled as a lot of things happened. Have to cope with my broken relationship, my family, my friends and my studies. Can say that nothing have gone well for the past 1 month. Just got a call from my dad not long ago, my grandmother is hospitalised. She suffered from high fever but fever went down and was getting better. Suddenly at night she collasped and is currently in coma. Dad ask me to go home early as he will be home late, don't let him worry further for us. By the way he told me, he sounded very serious and told me to be mentally prepared. Really pray that my grandmother is okay. Don't know why but I really feel like crying now, all those feeling of my broken relationship and things that are happening all crash together. Feeling so down and stressed. Anyway take care all.